All of these following dreams more or less unfolded itself into existence. Do I call them prophesies. If dreams could talk, we better listen. Some dreams were so heavy I couldn’t hold them in my waking moments, hence the three word notes.
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I
Something about
Does conscious or unconscious come first—
A discussion happening outside of me sitting on the toilet
I yell: No! Y’all are all wrong! Unconscious is first!
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II
December 4, 2024
Wayne and I had just broke up or some argument drove me to text other men
A few hours later Wayne texts me accusing me of sleeping with people and wanted me to prove that I had gone four hours without being a whore
He told me to come by the highschool at the entrance of the musical room. So I did. I got ready and drove towards the school.
As I turn the corner, I almost hit a kid who crosses the sidewalk last minute.
I slowly passed by the side of the school, looking to my left, I see people with a look of horror on their faces and I hear a gunshot, two gunshots and another one which came right towards me. My windows were down and it flew right through the windows and scraped my stomach. I didn’t even realize I was shot until police came running toward me. It seemed like everyone could see the future but me. Going to Wayne, I made a mistake, evidence is with a gunshot to my gut feeling.
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III
I preached my crazy beliefs but the crowd did not believe me
I went out outside and saw the moon
Ten times its normal size and it’s blue
Three stars of Orion’s belt are above
Bright as the ten times moon
The Great Pyramids in the far distance below
I start crying and woke up so confused
Where I was I did not know
I stare at the dark corner cut by the morning light
My self recomposed and returned to recognize
I am in my bedroom
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IV
Going back home to Texas without telling parents to see Wayne. Leaving the grocery store in a rush because I saw my mom behind the store who just called my phone.
Wayne drives a U-Haul in rain to get us food. He takes the backroads and destroys the car.
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V
Drowning in water
Cooking letting go
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VI
I had an important important thought when I woke up
Something about water again
Smoked out by the water
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VII
by allyson su 